Procrastination
It occurred to me tonight that I had completely forgotten about my new blog site before I even shared it with anyone. I am posting to mid-air, but figured I should give an update post before letting y'all know it exists. Hopefully the past week will not turn out to be an indication of my dedication to posting. It truly was an insane week and things shall return to a more semi-normal state now...I hope.
I finished the rough draft of my paper that night--Tues night-- and continued to revise it until I turned it in Saturday. Though I had never written a paper that far "ahead" of time, and I invested more in the paper than I have in any 5 page paper of my academic career, I was still very unhappy with the finished product. It was mediocre, not excellent, and no matter how much I worked on it I could not seem to improve it. Not sure if it was the difficulty of finding relevent research or what. I no longer want to share the paper. I'll be doing an ethical paper on the same topic in a couple weeks and I think that one will be better. I hope. In the meantime, it was such a relief to send it in Saturday knowing I had done all I could. It was an unbelievable weight. In the meantime, I wrote my other 6 project/papers and turned them in, and they were probably all rather mediocre but they did not matter nearly as much to me... and I'm sure my grades on them will be fine, while I am quite nervously awaiting the Hedberg grade.
Speaking of Hedberg, I had her class tonight and did not enjoy it at all, which is unusual. I'm not sure what we "learned" because I don't think I understood a thing going on. It was some random compilation of talk about the morality of law and the ten commandments and situational ethics and polling data and Jesus conducting polls and… well, nothing that made much sense to me. I thought it was just cause my brain is so foggy today—probably from lack of sleep—but it was confirmed by a classmate afterwards and since he is smarter than I am, the confusion was not just in my brain. The worst part was this breakout exercise because my "group" in that class consists of 3 girls who are super-spiritual and answer all class questions with “we just need to love God more” and one girl who gets so frustrated with the other three that she just pouts, and me…feeling the pressure to come up with SOMETHING to present to the Prof at the end of the breakout session. Ridiculous waste of time but oh well… I usually like that class...
I felt so relieved to have major projects over with last week that I was far to lax all weekend. Friday night we had a get-together at my friend Kristen’s house. She wanted to cook for everyone but it turned out she didn’t know how to cook, so I ghost-cooked for her… we made stuffed shells and I made refrigerator rolls (they make great bread sticks I discovered…) and cookies... It was fun... I love cooking for other ppl. We crammed about 10 friends into her tiny apt. After everyone left that night she and I talked until 3am, which was nuts since I had gotten 8 hours sleep combining the entire week up ‘til that night. I needed to invest that time in her though I think. So then Saturday I had to be up in Hampton at church (45 min drive) at 9am for dance practice since I was starting my first week on the church's dance team. It was really really cool... I like the team a lot and was very impressed. I will definitely be the worst dancer on the team and better get back my flexibility quick cause I was completely challenged at practice but that was a good thing. I love the leader… I’ll probably share more about that later. Anyway, I came back after practice and did some homework and then had social dance lessons that afternoon…which are a few Saturdays this semester. It’s really getting fun now that we are learning a little more advanced stuff and that was good. Then I went to the library to finish my paper… my friend Peter and I were both finishing ours up and emailing them in, helping eachother since most of us are learning Turabian style grammar/citation for the first time. Anyways, when we finished we went and picked out a movie and took it to Kristen’s to watch. Well, that sound simple but it was really an hour long process cause I discovered my wallet was missing and I had a free rental coupon but no blockbuster card and no ID and they wouldn't let us rent it and then he tried to open an account but the guy was a complete jerk and wouldn't let him cause he had a debit card instead of credit card so we went back to my house to look for my card but failed and then found Kristen’s other friend had a card and so we went to go meet them there and got lost in the parking lot and ...yeah, about 1.5hrs later we actually started the movie at Kristen’s…meaning it was another late night... Wow, those details sound really boring but it was truly hilarious at the time. Perhaps I was just so tired...
Late night Saturday led to having to be in Hampton for church at 7:30am to run the powerpoint… and I have to run it for both services which means being at church from 7:30am-1:30pm...if service actually gets out on time, which is rare. I came home, did some reading—fell asleep for 30 minutes accidentally—and then went to Kristen’s to watch the first half of the football game. Then we went to this bible study I've started attending for twenty-something women and then the church service for twenty-somethings. I still have a hard time thinking I fit in that category. I feel so old. It's a Baptist church but pretty good. I go mainly for the relationships, since bethel doesn’t have Sunday night services. I struggled over whether it was ok to go for relationships but then figured it was better than staying home completely on Sunday nights… This was my second week and last week was really kinda shallow mssg etc... and last night the bible study was lots of crying over being single—which I hate—but then the church sermon was actually a good message about self-sacrifice and discipline so it redeemed itself. Stayed afterwards since I had to give Kristen a ride home and she wanted to watch Hitch—they always play a movie after service. Another late night... got little done before crashing last night. So that was my exciting weekend. Lots of talking, little work. It’s been raining ALL weekend so that’s blah. First multiple days of rain since I've lived here. I’m going home with Kristen next weekend, she lives in Maryland...and we're going to spend Fri-Sat in DC and come back Monday. It should be fun.
I really need to do this assignment that’s due tonight. I'm using this as a form of procrastination that is really punishment to anyone who reads it since I'm sure its incredibly boring. I've had about 5 hours of relatively deep conversation today about everything from family dynamics to the destiny of the USA so I’m all thought-out I think...and have nothing to show for it. I should blog when I actually have something to say. I’ll try to do that in the future—I promise =)
I finished the rough draft of my paper that night--Tues night-- and continued to revise it until I turned it in Saturday. Though I had never written a paper that far "ahead" of time, and I invested more in the paper than I have in any 5 page paper of my academic career, I was still very unhappy with the finished product. It was mediocre, not excellent, and no matter how much I worked on it I could not seem to improve it. Not sure if it was the difficulty of finding relevent research or what. I no longer want to share the paper. I'll be doing an ethical paper on the same topic in a couple weeks and I think that one will be better. I hope. In the meantime, it was such a relief to send it in Saturday knowing I had done all I could. It was an unbelievable weight. In the meantime, I wrote my other 6 project/papers and turned them in, and they were probably all rather mediocre but they did not matter nearly as much to me... and I'm sure my grades on them will be fine, while I am quite nervously awaiting the Hedberg grade.
Speaking of Hedberg, I had her class tonight and did not enjoy it at all, which is unusual. I'm not sure what we "learned" because I don't think I understood a thing going on. It was some random compilation of talk about the morality of law and the ten commandments and situational ethics and polling data and Jesus conducting polls and… well, nothing that made much sense to me. I thought it was just cause my brain is so foggy today—probably from lack of sleep—but it was confirmed by a classmate afterwards and since he is smarter than I am, the confusion was not just in my brain. The worst part was this breakout exercise because my "group" in that class consists of 3 girls who are super-spiritual and answer all class questions with “we just need to love God more” and one girl who gets so frustrated with the other three that she just pouts, and me…feeling the pressure to come up with SOMETHING to present to the Prof at the end of the breakout session. Ridiculous waste of time but oh well… I usually like that class...
I felt so relieved to have major projects over with last week that I was far to lax all weekend. Friday night we had a get-together at my friend Kristen’s house. She wanted to cook for everyone but it turned out she didn’t know how to cook, so I ghost-cooked for her… we made stuffed shells and I made refrigerator rolls (they make great bread sticks I discovered…) and cookies... It was fun... I love cooking for other ppl. We crammed about 10 friends into her tiny apt. After everyone left that night she and I talked until 3am, which was nuts since I had gotten 8 hours sleep combining the entire week up ‘til that night. I needed to invest that time in her though I think. So then Saturday I had to be up in Hampton at church (45 min drive) at 9am for dance practice since I was starting my first week on the church's dance team. It was really really cool... I like the team a lot and was very impressed. I will definitely be the worst dancer on the team and better get back my flexibility quick cause I was completely challenged at practice but that was a good thing. I love the leader… I’ll probably share more about that later. Anyway, I came back after practice and did some homework and then had social dance lessons that afternoon…which are a few Saturdays this semester. It’s really getting fun now that we are learning a little more advanced stuff and that was good. Then I went to the library to finish my paper… my friend Peter and I were both finishing ours up and emailing them in, helping eachother since most of us are learning Turabian style grammar/citation for the first time. Anyways, when we finished we went and picked out a movie and took it to Kristen’s to watch. Well, that sound simple but it was really an hour long process cause I discovered my wallet was missing and I had a free rental coupon but no blockbuster card and no ID and they wouldn't let us rent it and then he tried to open an account but the guy was a complete jerk and wouldn't let him cause he had a debit card instead of credit card so we went back to my house to look for my card but failed and then found Kristen’s other friend had a card and so we went to go meet them there and got lost in the parking lot and ...yeah, about 1.5hrs later we actually started the movie at Kristen’s…meaning it was another late night... Wow, those details sound really boring but it was truly hilarious at the time. Perhaps I was just so tired...
Late night Saturday led to having to be in Hampton for church at 7:30am to run the powerpoint… and I have to run it for both services which means being at church from 7:30am-1:30pm...if service actually gets out on time, which is rare. I came home, did some reading—fell asleep for 30 minutes accidentally—and then went to Kristen’s to watch the first half of the football game. Then we went to this bible study I've started attending for twenty-something women and then the church service for twenty-somethings. I still have a hard time thinking I fit in that category. I feel so old. It's a Baptist church but pretty good. I go mainly for the relationships, since bethel doesn’t have Sunday night services. I struggled over whether it was ok to go for relationships but then figured it was better than staying home completely on Sunday nights… This was my second week and last week was really kinda shallow mssg etc... and last night the bible study was lots of crying over being single—which I hate—but then the church sermon was actually a good message about self-sacrifice and discipline so it redeemed itself. Stayed afterwards since I had to give Kristen a ride home and she wanted to watch Hitch—they always play a movie after service. Another late night... got little done before crashing last night. So that was my exciting weekend. Lots of talking, little work. It’s been raining ALL weekend so that’s blah. First multiple days of rain since I've lived here. I’m going home with Kristen next weekend, she lives in Maryland...and we're going to spend Fri-Sat in DC and come back Monday. It should be fun.
I really need to do this assignment that’s due tonight. I'm using this as a form of procrastination that is really punishment to anyone who reads it since I'm sure its incredibly boring. I've had about 5 hours of relatively deep conversation today about everything from family dynamics to the destiny of the USA so I’m all thought-out I think...and have nothing to show for it. I should blog when I actually have something to say. I’ll try to do that in the future—I promise =)
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